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A big “NO” to writing… Blah blah

I Feel This Way.
I Feel This Way.

Aaah … so here I am. Back to my beloved blog after a long time. It’s been months since I have practically written an elaborate post. Almost like 3 months.

Things have been pretty much hard on me and honestly speaking I’ve been harder with myself as well. Three consecutive months of exams, I’ve not been sleeping well,eating well, just confined to my bedroom and my bed. It’s been quite a long time since I’ve had a nice long conversation with anybody; my siblings, my friends or anybody. For a few months I felt as if life is imprisoned in a few books and my bedroom.

I was never the sort of a person who would take exams or anything in life seriously but I seriously have no idea what happened this time. I was

worried, I was hell tensed and most of all I was agitated . The exams are finally over and it has been over 2 weeks but yes … I am still surprised at my attitude. I am still edgy and my lack of interest in everything surprises me. During my exams I planned a whole TO Do List after the exams but now … I don’t feel like sketching, I don’t feel like painting, I don’t feel like Writing … Yeah a big NO to writing.

The bad No Writing Days
The bad No Writing Days

It’s just that whenever I pick up my pen I don’t feel that pace, that rhythm of words that I used to feel before.
Mostly at night I feel like writing but it’s just that words are not in good terms with me these days.
For a person who is not expressive, who doesn’t speak at all and then starts expressing everything through writing. Then suddenly the words say a huge “Bye Bye!” , That puts a lot of burden on your heart seriously so yeah… Things are not going good with me.

I20140706-062245-22965771.jpg have had constant headache for the past month because I didn’t sleep well at night partly because of my exams and mainly because I am having massive sleeping problems for a couple of months. Normally a headache is nothing new for me … More or less I feel like I tame them or may be they tame me.
Still I don’t sleep well, my backbone hurts everyday, I’ve lost more weight. Plus nowadays I am hell angry at everyone.
I’ve fought with my siblings more than twice in this week and countless times in the previous month. I scold my brother on every tiny little thing and he just passes by without saying anything. So in short I am turning into a full time Evil Lady… Oh! No no no, not a Lady just an Evil young girl .. The word Lady seems old.. I wanna stay as a kid throughout my life, I don’t wanna grow up.
I was always considered as a “Happy Go Lucky” person but Gosh! This time?? … I am seriously surprised and I dunno what?
I get offended by little arguments. I consider every joke as a disrespect to myself. I can feel fear growing within myself. I feel like no matter how much I pretend not to give a damn but still there is something inside me which says I am sensitive to people’s attitudes.
And honestly I don’t like this new edgy and sensitive version of mine.





I am Called as an Owl

You might be thinking that after eagles,now I am up for praising owls,endorsing their beauty,sketching them blah blah. But LOL this time I am talking about myself under this title. I am often called as an “OWL” by my friends, not because I look like one but just because like owls i sleep at day and wake up all night.

I am crazy in my own way. When everybody is busy in their dreams I have my eyes wide open imagining the scenarios and events that I wish could have happened in the past or would happen in the future, and that makes me happy. But is that enough to define me as crazy??? Who says I am crazy???
I mean the only difference is that they dream while sleeping while I prefer dreaming with my eyes open.

I am not a demanding person at all but I am crazy in my own way. When all the girls think about their guys,their dream boys, I am busy in making a perfect scenario in mind of a happily married life of ny best friend. When every girl gets her hands on her favourite jewellery, I am busy in offering the same to my younger siblings. When everybody at home buys costly fancy heels for an upcoming event, I am mom buy only the casual ones so that my dad doesn’t have to pay much. When everybody else designs their next wardrobe, I am just busy texting because I don’t care how I look.
But is that enough to define me as crazy??? Who says I am crazy???
I mean the only difference is that they have their own interests and I have my own.

It’s just that I consider myself a “Rebel”.
When everybody listens to the lectures in class, I am busy sleeping (Thanks God! I don’t snore). When everybody studies for exams, I am busy sketching. When everybody is ready for the school, gets in the car, I am still busy doing my hair. When everybody gets their hands on the breakfast, I am still busy yawning in the bathroom. And lastly today; a day before my exam, everybody else is studying and I am busy blogging.

O man! That’s mere madness.

Or most likely I would call myself as
” A social antagonist, an Official Rebel and a free flying Insomniac Owl”

But still does that define me as crazy??? Who says I am crazy???

Solutions to the language of sarcasm

This is in response to my previous post ” Zip up your tongue First”


 how can we help those children??

Thinking of the solutions now …..

There can be just a few options

1. The sarcastic beings should change their attitude and mind their tongues.

(practically not possible)

2. You should change your attitude and stop being bothered by this shit.

3. If someone else is suffering from these issues then how can we help??? …We can help by uttering just a few kind words and believe me this will help allot.


The second option seems appropriate to me as we can’t change the behavior of the whole world but we have the command over ours.I have learnt doing that.It is difficult at the beginning but not impossible at all.

People may call you “Dheet” or ” Deaf” or “self-centered”  or whatever but you and your closed ones know who actually you are and that’s just enough for all …

I have always worked on the third option and want the others to do the same.