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Trusting your Instincts

It’s been a long time since I’ve written something, although I have been thriving to write something for weeks but I just couldn’t. Half of the reason is my exams and half because I am not in a good form these days.
Thinking a lot is something really normal for me but these days I am getting nervous and pretty much sensitive over ill issues that

The little instinct bulb in your head.
The little instinct bulb in your head.

never seemed to bother me before. I dunno the reason but things are happening this way since a short period of time.
A week ago while solving my paper in the examination hall I was overwhelmed by a dozen thoughts. I have a strange urge of common sense that wakes up only in the examination hall and unfortunately that strange common sense says exactly opposite of what I’ve been studying and what I’ve been writing in my paper. While attempting a question I just closed my eyes, (metaphorically speaking) trusted my common sense (which seriously sucks at times) and went on with whatever I had in mind. But throughout the writing thingy I had a strange sense that something’s like not so well. Just like something pricking me from inside time to time again and again and I ignored that. When I came back home … Opened my lecture notebook … I found out that I have attempted the question entirely wrong. That was the most disappointing moment because I’ve been studying really hard for days. I was disappointed because I ignored my self first.
After that exam this word is fully stuck in my mind “INSTINCTS”. I should have trusted my instincts. I ruined my own toil just because I didn’t trust myself. Disappointing indeed.

From that day and specifically that exam I learned that

Whatever the first thing, the first instinct comes into your mind is always right.

It might not be a hard and fast rule but I have started believing that.
I don’t know instincts are voices from your heart?? … Your mind?? … Your soul?? .. Or your inner fears?? Or what??
I just can’t decide. But whatever they are they say the truth. I have started believing that

If you feel in your heart and soul that something is wrong then IT PROBABLY IS.

Okay … So in the process of trusting my instincts in my next exam I came to a point like this

I've got loads of problems.
I’ve got loads of problems.

Yes I know I’ve got a lot of problems. 🙂 In situations like this what I did was just blindly following the first thought. Ask yourself questions. That isn’t easy, because several thoughts will flood your mind at once. For instance, let’s say you’re looking at a menu. In figuring out what you want, pick out the first thing that stands out to you. Ignore the remainder of your thoughts, like for example: “But I didn’t even look at the specials” or “But my friend is on a diet and I’ll feel bad eating this in front of him” or “But my uncle said the mashed potatoes he had here were too mushy” etc. Don’t dwell on it.

The little instinctive me inside my head.
The little instinctive me inside my head.

Just pick something. It might be scary, because what if you make the wrong choice? Do not worry, you will be fine.
May be my innocent instincts get confused just because I am confused as well.
Instincts are the little voices, no matter how feeble they are.. They can still guide you or haunt you. You just gotta recognize them, differentiate them and simply trust them.
I have come to a point where trusting them is the only option I am left with but I am still not truly able it understand what they need to say, where are they leading me – nobody knows. May be they are something associated with the 6th sense or your fears??

They call it the “Gut Feeling”
Studies say that you experience a certain type of discomfort in your gut when you know a decision is wrong.
I’ve never noticed that but I’ll probably start noticing from now onwards.
A quote says:

Trust yourself, your instincts, what you believe. You know more than what you think you do.

Trust your instincts, listen to the voice inside you and trust that you’re doing the right thing.

But the question is … That if you yourself don’t trust yourself- your instincts, who on earth is gonna do it then???


From an optimist to yet another pessimist


I just thought about a few things that i used to believe and i used to do a few years back.When somebody asked me about my qualities the first answer that i always had was that


A classmate of mine seemed like the most pessimistic person to me.She was always and always worried about something,i dunno what.But whatever it was,it bothered her allot.I kept criticizing her on her moods and never thought about the reason behind it.May be because i was least interested in helping her or because i had no issues in my life at that time.

Now when i look at the way i think about everybody every problem everything i always conclude that may be she may be she was passing through the same phase as i am now.

But my question still remains unanswered.

What is that thing that makes people think this way… What is that thing that make people think that God doesn’t exist … What is that thing that made them think that she was born without any right on herself… What is that thing that makes them think that they dont own it and they don’t deserve it either…


Its DARKNESS and DISAPPOINTMENT that kills a persons self esteem.. That changes the person from inside out..that makes a person struggle and fight with himself and even disown himself.

And its just DARKNESS and DISAPPOINTMENT that makes a pessimist out of an optimist…

Not up for the advises

advice  Someone advised me once:

 “Being educated does not mean that you have to argue all the time”.

 Ehmm …. I do agree that i argue allot at times..

 An argument can have              different meanings and  different forms.It does not represent stubbornness and egoistic approach all the times.Sometimes the argument does not literally mean what it apparently seems.

It can be meant to express your personal concerns,your nightmares,your considerations,a way of soothing your self esteem,a means of hiding and running away from worst fears,may be a means for the realization of your own importance,your own value or putting your insecurities and fears into words

…a few harsh words