Heya everyone who is reading now or will read my content anytime after.
It was long ago since I read this quote by Khalid Hosseini. I can’t actually say from which book of his is the quote taken as I am not done with reading all of them (Although I hope to do it one day soon). Anyhow it says;
“They think they live by what they want. But really what guides them is what they are afraid of. What they don’t want.”
– Khalid Hosseini
As jigsawed as it appeared initially, the more meaningful it tended to be afterwards. The danger of confronting your worst fears is actually what keeps you running in life. If I look at myself it has always been like that. A year from now I remember sitting in my office and thinking of loosing the friends I was attached to, and the mere feeling was enough to give me goosebumps. And here I am now a year later, distant from all that I thought was conspicuous to me.
Five years ago, as I sat in my university lecture hall, thinking that I can never be stupid enough to fall victim to any mutual attachment. And here five years later, I am fallen fickle-minded and in deep ambivalence. Well … the post got too depressing I guess (accept my sincere apologies). The central essence is that you always always are destined to meet the danger of your worst fears and you still continue to live no matter what. (It is like that for me but I hope things can be opposite for others).
Thinking of the same things one night I just jotted down a few words- a poem actually.
Hoping to write about you one day,
What always held me back was fear,
For I fear you’ll ace all my regrets,
and stand atop of all flaws I possess,
You’ll be a throbbing pain I feared,
Whose remembrance causes agony and guilt,
I feared starting to give you much worth,
For I may make me loose my worth.
Alas! little did I know whether I write or not,
It’s your worst fears that you always have to confront,
The most dreadful fears of yours are the ones you are bound to face,
Thus…. Here I am.