Breaking the Silence..

A big Hello to everyone who is reading this and for those who will read this long after this time.
Yeah breaking the long awaited silence .. It has been more than three months since I’ve written something specifically for my blog.
Somewhere in between this long period I have written some material but that is just confined to my notebook and since I was too lazy and saturated to type it and write details about it so that still remains unshared.


Days have been pretty much sound and safe since this month and I am actually learning to be more considerate to myself. I am not much purpose oriented so yeah just learning and observing what I need and what suits me..
Sleeping on time ..
Eating on time..
Not skipping meals..
Having a proper breakfast..
Trying a little much to pray on time..
Not letting negative things to sneak over my mind..
And giving sound time to myself ..
This is how I define “Being Considerate to myself’. Small insignificant things but yeah these things help me a lot.

I am not good with dealing myself as well as others. So I am learning to do that these days.
Intentionally or unintentionally I’ve stepped back from complains, arguments and every other person who is fond of complaining.
Life seems pretty much peaceful without complains and arguments.

So yup .. Coming to the point ..
In between all of these things writing and writing stays somewhere at the corner of the puzzled world. I’ve been painting recently but no writing at all. Sometimes I get a feeling that I am at a total loss of words in terms of speaking and writing as well.
No stanzas..
No rhymings..
No matches..
No poems..
And even if I decide to write then it takes hours to just figure out from where should I start.
There are times like these when you look at your previous pieces and then ask yourself … Was it really me?

For me it’s like the same time these days. I am just trying and convincing myself not to let my moods take over myself. Life and dealing things can be pretty difficult for a moody person. But yup I know I’ll get it all fixed soon. 🙂

So yeah when I opened my notebook .. My previous bits and pieces .. I decided to transform right,my amusement over my previous writings into another new writing and thats how it goes.

Pieces of Myself...
Pieces of Myself…

When minds are blank and words don’t speak,
And I think for days deciding to write,

Then I sit for hours so what to write?
Doubts in heart and the mind – not so bright,

The thoughts all jumbled, tangles today,
And the pen shook it’s head in dismay,
APOLOGIES LADY!! The words are not so generous today,

Amused .. As I lingered between the past pages,
The former writings.. a few of my pieces,

Damn! Is this all a part of me?
The part that I feel scared to see,

Are these delusions that stand so tall?

Break the Silence..


  1. Wow, This was so touching to read Mariyaah. As a fellow writer I can understand and relate with your dilemma. As they say you cannot force creativity, one day, someday you just get hit with inspiration all of a sudden. Just believe in yourself, we all know how much of a great writer you are. We all have our blank walls, we hit from time to time.

    And reading that Rumi quote reminded me of this another quote by him “You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.”

    I wish you all the luck and lots of love and big bear hugs.
    Much love,
    Zee ❤


    1. Thank you so much Zee 🙂
      It’s always great to get any sort of response from you. As I just read the subject line in my mailbox that says ‘Comment by lifeconfusions’ and I know it’s something really positive and encouraging. 🙂
      Who doesn’t like being appreciated after all.
      My sincere thanks again.
      Much respect and love.
      *Hugs back tightly*


      1. Awh you are so sweet Mariyaah, you deserve all the best in life. No need to thank it’s always a pleasure reading whatever you write. Keep writing sweety ❤

        Much love your way ❤


  2. Aww I can so understand the feeling when you can’t seem to be able to write something! It’s like torture!
    But I’m glad I came here anyway, I love how you are fond of Rumi, I love the guy myself!
    I hope you recover the writing sense soon, from someone who detests those phases!

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    1. I am also glad that you came here 🙂
      Yeah .. Rumi is a voice which never fails to amaze and inspire me at the very same time, and I think he is worth it.
      The depth of his words, the meaning behind each and every phrase .. It’s beyond extra ordinary.
      Thank you for visiting and writing to me. 🙂

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